A szakasz 197.5 km lesz, Brest városából mennek Plumelec-be. A verseny nyilván hektikus lesz, a Tour eleje mindig nagyon veszélyes a sok tolakodás miatt, még mindenki izgága. Sebaj, majd a harmadik héten már nem nagyon fognak ugrálni:) Addig viszont meg kell úszniuk az összetett győzelemre törőknek a bukásokat, amik várhatóan sajnos gyakran előfordulnak majd az első héten.

Az etapot tarkítani fogja egy szökés, ebben egészen biztos vagyok, hiszen lesz négy darab 4. kategóriás dombocska, ami ugyan nem nagy dolog, de arra bőven elég, hogy egy szökésre és magamutogatásra hajlamos versenyző, pl. Voeckler a nap végén a dobogóra állhasson és átvehesse a pöttyös trikót. Lesz ezen kívül még három részhajrá is, ezeket szerintem elviszi a szökés. Majd a vége felé megfogják őket, és sprintben eldöntik a szakaszt. Mostanában azonban sajnos nem lehet ennyivel lezárni az ügyet, hiszen elképzelhetőnek tartom, hogy Cancellara, Millar vagy valaki hozzájuk hasonló megpróbálja meglepni a sprintereket és egy last minute szökéssel elvinni a szakaszt. Cancellara nagyon jó ebben, lásd Milano-San Remo és svájci körverseny, így aztán a csapatvezetők a QuickStepnél, Liquigasnál, stb. rághatják a körmüket.

Idén sem marad el a tippelésem, ma szerintem:

1. Cavendish

3. Hushovd

lesz a sorrend.

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This year's Tour, in contrast to the last few years experience, doesn't start with a prologue. Today's opening stage will be an almost 200 km long journey from Brest to Plumelec in the north-western of France.

There will be plenty of action right from the start of the stage, because there are four 4th category "climbs" and three intermediate sprints during the stage. That could motivate fearless attackers, like Voeckler (BTC), even though they have no chance to succeed with the break, to show the strength of French cycling (haha) in their own country by taking the polka-dot jersey right at the beginning of the race.

I also assume there will be a mass sprint at the finish, or at least everybody would like to have one. But don't forget about the Swiss rider, reigning world time trial champion Fabian Cancellara (CSC), who is definately a tower of power when it comes to riding alone. Remember this year's Milano-San Remo or a stage of the Tour of Suisse? Yes, he is capable for spoiling sprinters parties, as well as is David Millar of team Garmin. Anyway, the team directors know about them and surely they will be prepaired for such last-minute attacks. My Top3 for stage one are:

1. Cavendish (TCO)

3. Hushovd (CA)

If there’s one thing I despise about people, that’s stupidity.

Things happen right in front of their faces over and over again and they just can’t discern the best way out. They just don’t learn. It even looks as if they didn’t want to learn. It’s repulsive to me to see them act in such foolish ways. In such childish and immature ways sometimes that I feel like locking myself up in my room until it’s all over.

And it’s much more painful when it comes from someone you love and care about.

Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance
I just wanna praise you
I just wanna praise you
You broke the chains now I can lift my hands
And I'm gonna praise you
I'm gonna praise you

Everything that could go wrong
All went wrong at one time
So much pressure fell on me
I thought I was gonna lose my mind
But I know you wanna see
If I will hold on through these trials
But I need you to lift this load
Cause I can't take it no more

Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance
I just wanna praise you
I just wanna praise you
You broke the chains now I can lift my hands
And I'm gonna praise you
I'm gonna praise you

Been through the fire and the rain
Bound in every kind of way
But God has broken every chain
So let me go right now

Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance
I just wanna praise you
I just wanna praise you
You broke the chains now I can lift my hands
And I'm gonna praise you
I'm gonna praise you

...

Break the rest of the chains Father...

I need you to lift this load
Cause I can't take it no more

Back in the days when I still had something like a creative drive, I wrote this song for a band that never came into existence… I guess it would have needed a lot of refinement or our band wouldn't have lasted long. Anyway, here is one of the stanzas that I think fits what's been going on lately.

When I lay down my head starts taking of
Spinnin' round till I want to take it off
Vesicles they leak inside my brain
Pull the pin, if you can't pin in my brain

Although the Phenom X4 9850 running at 2.5 GHz packs quite a punch, it seems that its early adopters might have a problem in convincing it to work with the existing motherboards based on the company's 770 and 780G high-end chipsets.

AMD seems to have gone wrong again, despite the fact that it started to deliver the promised Barcelona chips, after seven months of delays. Rest assured, there is no problem with the silicon, as you would have

expected. In fact, the problem occurs in Barcelona's neighborhood, the Phenom family.

Although the Phenom X4 9850 running at 2.5 GHz packs quite a punch, it seems that its early adopters might have a problem in convincing it to work with the existing motherboards based on the company's 770 and 780G high-end chipsets.

This is quite odd, given the fact that the Phenom X4 9850 is a high-end chip and the 780G chipset is one of the toughest chipsets on the market. On the contrary, users would expect to have a top-notch system, built from scratch with AMD hardware. The bad news is that they would end up with a rig that refuses to boot.

The Phenom 9850 Black Edition has limited support on the boards equipped with the 780G chipset because of its increased thermal design power (125 watts). The MOSFET semiconductors on the motherboard can handle the Black Edition CPU when it is properly cooled and placed in a decent case, but as most of the users omit this aspect, the board's VRM would ultimately fail and even crash.

According to tech website Fudzilla, the issue is caused by AMD's flexible guidelines released to its manufacturing partners, that allow them to use cheaper components for the VRM modules, so it's likely that they won't support the whole 125 watts of a stock-frequency Phenom 9850 Black Edition processor.

Moreover, the processor is not compatible with some of Nvidia-based motherboards, as they sport the same three- or four-phase VRM design. Apart from the Phenom 9850 Black Edition, users will get a lot of hassle when using other high-TDP offerings from AMD, such as X2 6000+/6400+, FX-62, Phenom X4 9750 – 9850 – 9950 and the upcoming models with higher clock speeds.

That's our King! :D

(I didn't get the rights to bring this one, but seriousy, does anyone really mind?)

The naïve approach would be to try and centralize as much as possible. A typical example would be a Server Based Computing environment, where standard PCs are replaced by thin clients and Terminal Servers deliver desktop functionality on shared servers in the data center.

Resource sharing however also has its penalties. As an example, some applications are not suitable for a Terminal Server environment, resulting in expensive upfront testing and in a hybrid desktop deployment architecture. As another drawback, one has to consider the possibility that if one application of one user crashes, the whole server environment might go down hindering the productivity of all users. Finally, data security is hugely effected by resource sharing and resource isolation.

Scalable resource sharing

So there is a trade-off between cost reduction resulting from resource sharing and cost increase caused by the very same resource sharing. The optimal case obviously depends on the particular situation. Scaling up from minimum to maximum resource sharing, the following desktop delivery possibilities appear:

1. Laptops.
   Laptops are increasingly used as their prices keep going down. Laptops however share even less resources than desktop PCs, as the latter at least share the LAN and WAN infrastructure of the company, while laptops are also used outside the firewall.
2. Desktop PCs.
   Desktop PCs are the backbone of the traditional desktop delivery model and still constitute the dominant delivery method of today.
3. Blade PCs: data center hosted blade PCs with thin clients.
   With a blade PC, the computer part of the desktop (i.e. CPU, memory, hard disc) is moved to the datacenter. Resource sharing however is still rather poor and might cover power supply, cooling and storage.
   HP's BladeSystem is a typical example of this species.
4. Hardware virtualization: thin clients with Virtual Desktop Infrastructure (VDI) using server-hosted hardware virtualization.
   In this model, the desktop is virtualized and runs in its own virtual machine in a server in the data center. Resource sharing is now extended to the server hardware. Each desktop user however still has its own operating system instance, which could be Windows Vista for one user and Linux for another.
   A typical example would be VMware's VDI with ESX on the server side.
5. Operating system virtualization: thin clients with VDI using server-hosted operating system virtualization.
   Now the virtual desktop runs in an operating system virtualization environment, acting as a kind of container within the server operating system. Resource sharing is further increased as users actually share the operating system. As a result, all users have to use the same operating system and a mix of e.g. Windows and Linux is not supported.
   Parallels' Virtuozzo would be a typical example of the operating system virtualization side.
6. Terminal Services: thin clients with Server Based Computing using Terminal Services.
   Instead of simulating a separate desktop in the server, this model builds on the multi-user functionality of the server operating system. Therefore, resources sharing is further increased.
   A best known example would be Citrix Presentation Server (aka XenApp).
7. Ultra-thin clients with Server Based Computing using Terminal Services.
   In all of the previous thin client models, the thin client uses an embedded operating system to support remote access via e.g. Microsoft's RDP protocol or Citrix's ICA. Resource sharing can further be increased by centralizing the RDP/ICA communication handling, leaving a really ultra-thin client at the user side. Such an ultra-thin client can be used in any of the previous models by the way, and not only in combination with Terminal Servers.
   A typical example would be Sun Ray clients with Sun Ray server software.

Effects on capital expenditure and first time deployment:

Notes:

1. The mass market effects of laptops and PCs makes them relatively inexpensive compared to data center hardware.
2. Typically, Terminal Servers support 5 to 10 times the number of desktops compared to server-hosted hardware virtualization. Server-hosted operating system virtualizationsupports again 5 to 10 times the number of desktops compared to hardware virtualization.
3. The cost of all centralized elements increases as a result of failover and disaster-recovery measures.

Effects on operational expenditures:

 
Notes:

1. Support costs constitute the major part of operational expenses.
2. Energy consumption is of growing interest in the context of operational expenses.
3. The more centralized - yet isolated - desktop architectures typically provide the best data security. Generally, this effect is difficult to calculate in operational expenses.

Conclusion

How much centralization is good enough? As always, the answer is "it depends". Important questions to be answered are: how much freedom do we need to allow the end-users, how important is data security, what level of availability is acceptable, are users mobile and partly offline, etc.

So far, only physical resource sharing has been considered. To make things more complicated, there is also a varying degree of non-physical resource sharing in the mix. Examples are software licenses, O/S and application pooling and application streaming, which all contribute to resource sharing with an effect on both upfront investment and support costs.

The optimal desktop delivery architecture will probably be a mix of multiple technologies for the time being. Unfortunately, this will again increase the costs.

There is a full institutionalised establishment ( religious, philosophical, political) which legitimates:

1.        the male and state control over the reproductive women's natural ability (religious, philosophical and political legitimisation);

2.        the women's strictly responsibility for mistreated pregnancy or childcare (a good example is that Penal Code in Romania incriminates only mothers for infanticide while both mother and fathers benefit from childcare work vacation) and for sexual transmission diseases (most of the programs for preventing sexual transmission diseases are targeting the women);

3.        the women's strictly responsibility for domestic work (which is unpaid but the time involved in this kind of work can constitute work experience -and this is important in Romania for access to work-retirement pay- only if taxes are paid to the states for this unpaid work)

4.        the women's strictly incrimination for heterosexual immoral behaviour (prostitution, as it is a illegal conduct in Romania, is penal incriminated only over women prostitutes, while their "clients"  are not sanctioned and are not considered equally responsible for this illegal conduct)

5.        the women inability to self-determination and personal aspirations (appears in family socialisation; it appears in the full educational ignorance for feminine experiences and females contribution to the history; it is motivated by the women's lack of performances and freedom, which constitutes exactly the consequences of this institutionalised sexism, not its premises; public discourse recognises self-determined women as exceptional cases, which proves and strengthens exactly the sexism principles).

"INTPs are rare--say one percent of the general population--and therefore not to be encountered in ordinary places"

I'm also rare. Actually, there's only one of me within 5 billion people. And I'm not encountered ordinary places, either. ;)

"With their grand desire to grasp the laws of unity and diversity, they can be a bit snobbish and may show impatience at times with others less endowed with engineering ability, or less driven. Unfortunately, their pride in their ingenuity can, at times, generate hostility and defensive maneuvers on the part of others."

The 'science' I spend most time discussing with others is 'theology'. (This topic belongs with humanities, not with sciences. Science doesn't interest me much, not even Math.) I do recognise feeling snobbish and getting impatient with people concluding something simple from a single verse or passage in the bible without fitting it into the whole picture and understand the true complexity of the issues at hand.

Narrowmindedness on complicated issues slightly annoys me. It doesn't bother me a lot, because I don't need others to know the truth as long as I feel assured myself. I mostly feel like avoiding debates with such individuals. I may even ridicule their narrowminded approach to the topic. This has caused quite a few conflicts from time to time.

"Architects exhibit the greatest precision in though and language of all the types. They tend to see distinctions and inconsistencies in thought and language instantaneously, and can detect crontradictions in statements no matter when or where the statements were made. Only sentences that are coherent carry weight with them"

This definitely applies to me. I also find it very embarrassing when I realise that a statement I've made contradicts itself. If you expect people to listen to you and take you seriously, your sentences ought to make perfect sense with no risk of being misinterpreted. I try not to waste time arguing with people who can't express themselves verbally, because I feel powerless and confused having such conversations. I will much rather observe their behaviour and try to make sense of their actions myself. Dangerous approach, at times, I know.

"Like the ENTPs, INTPs are differential analysis giving them an enourmous advantage in discrediting their opponents' arguments and in structuring their own. They regard all discussions as a search for understanding, and believe their function is to eliminate inconsistencies, no matter who is guilty of them."

Of course? I'm struggling to see how else one would regard the function of discussions and debates if it's not about coming closer to the truth?

"It is difficult for an INTP to listen to nonsense, even in casual conversation, without pointing out the speaker's error, and this makes communication with them an uncomfortable experience for many."

I've paid much attention to this habit of mine lately. It has nothing to do with the people I'm talking to. It's all about the words and phrases. A friend seems to think I just enjoy correcting her. Truth is, I can't help it.

"They are inclined to be shy except when with close friends, and their reserve is difficult to penetrate."

I'm sorry to say yes to this one.

"Architects take their mating relationship seriously and are faithful and devoted--albeith preoccupied at times, and somewhat forgetful of appointments, anniversaries, and other common social rituals."

I recognise that. I don't have a 'mate', so I obviously can't say for sure. I've managed to forget my own birthday, though, I've even decided not to celebrate it once (when I got 18), because I didn't want all the fuss. I will most certainly remember my future wife's birthday, though. And yes, I promise to spoil her.

"They prefer to keep their desires and emotions to themselves, and may seem insensitive to the desires and emotions of others, an insensitivity that can puzzle and frustrate their mates."

The key word is 'seem'. We're not, we just 'seem' to be. I've been accused of being it once or twice which is a bit hurtful. This quote, I added, because I definitely 'keep most of my emotions to myself' (usually) in good faith. They really don't concern others, and I prefer dealing with them on my own. Some friends are bothered by this. Others actually prefer it that way. I'm just trying to please everybody, really. (And I'm doomed to fail)

So my conclusion would be, I'm definitely an INXP.

So which one am I? Drawing upon Keirsey's nicknames, am I the healer or the architect? When reading his descriptions, I feel quite certain that I'm the INFP, but definitely with a strong rational edge. I do find myself able to act and behave against my emotions based on what seems rational. I've said no to temptations I expect that true NFs would/could not.

However, I think the theory is somewhat fragile, and I guess I'm a bit influenced by Freudian thinking that all humans aim for simple pleasure, even though they walk some rather complex paths to get there sometimes. The NFs are simply going for the short term pleasure whereas the NTs are thinking long term. But they all want the same, basically. That's pretty much my own interpretation, by the way.

Temptation and sanctification

I also need to pay attention to my Christian view that all humans have the power to act and behave against their feelings to some extent. That's why we're all responsible for our sins, because we have the power not to sin, but yet we sin. We deliberately fall into temptation. Except none of us have complete power since we all end up doing things we'd rather not do. So all of us have the power of the will, but nobody completely. It's a paradox, however this is how the bible describes the sinful state.

I guess it makes great sense that sanctification leads NFs towards the NTs, but part of me objects that it only makes sense to the NTs. The NTs can do what they know to be right even when facing temptations. The poor NFs feel that the wrong things are right and--seeing that their choices are guided by their emotions--they just sin. This is way too simplified, though. Even the strongest NTs fall into temptation, and even the strongest NFs die as marthyrs.

My strongest objection towards the 'sanctified to be NT'-thought is the idea that you are cured when you stop doing. Even if you may choose not to sin, but still feel like sinning, you are essentially bad. Your heart is still drawn towards sin. You are no better than the ones actually doing what your heart wants to do because your hearts are the same. And you are certainly not sanctified, though you may be on your way.

"Not good or bad, just you"

As pointed out by an NF friend, a basic principle of the Myers-Briggs personality theory is that there are no rights or wrongs, "you're not good or bad, you're just you". This would be the humanistic, scientific presupposition. "If there is no God, there are no objective moral values." The logical conclusion would be adopting some sort of nihilism (Viktor Frankl, an Austrian psychiatrist, called it nothingbutness), though most science folks probably go with some humanistic relativism.

Consequently, "we're not offenders against any moral law, we're just acting in accordance with nature". Again, a basic presumption I simply cannot grasp as a Christian, nor as a simple observant of this messed up world. (Another NF friend attacked the view by asking if this included the acts of pedophiles. If all adults abused children sexually, would pedophilia be acceptable ethically speaking?)

There are indeed moral differences in psychological weaknesses, and some weaknesses are definitely worse than others, objectively speaking. Note that 'subjective to God' would be 'objective to us' because he is the Creator. But in the end, all human individuals are (equally) sinful since all of them have lost the glory of God. ENTJs, for instance, are not spiritually superior to ISFPs. ENTJs are simply weak in some aspects, ISFPs in others.

Closer to an answer

Now, all these thoughts and discussions about being NT compared to being NF has brought me nowhere closer to an answer on which one I am. Although, this blog post strikes me as being the work of a rational. Yet, I find myself reading Keirsey, and I can strongly relate to the INFP, not so much the INTP who bores me. Though few funny details stick out and give me hints that I might be on my way to become the INTP.

A Christian counsellor told me that the Feelings know that they are Feeling whereas the Thinkings often think they might be Feeling, but they are Thinking. If true, I'm a Thinking who has learned to feel. I just sense it's the other way around. I think I used to be Feeling, but my rational mind has gained quite a bit of power over the last few years making me able to reflect rationally over the feelings that drive me.

The characteristics

I look at the set of values that characterises the different types, and I try to place myself accordingly. It makes me rational (NT) that I am usually calm, not enthusiastic; that I generally trust reason, not intuition. On the other hand, it makes me idealistic (NF) that I yearn for romance, not achievement; that I seek identity, not knowledge; that I prize recognition, not deference. Looking down the lists I jump from the one to the other, never really feeling doubtful about my preferences.

In a few years from now, I might be somewhere else. Perhaps, the obvious question is what do I really want to be? Actually, I feel quite content being where I am. I wish I were more in control of my feelings (especially in the present), but sometimes I envy the passion of the feeling (when they feel something positive, that is). I think I'll try to explain some of my NT traits later.

update:

Release candidate 2 - now with good icons, full sound and music (no music for 770 version due to the lack of native OGG support )

http://sourceforge.net/project/showfiles.php?group_id=167767

EeePC users:

if you have a customized menu, Angstron will override it. In order to run , take the binary from inside the debian package (angstron-0.99-EeePC/data.tar.gz/./usr/bin/angstron) and copy it to the same folder of the regular debian package.

OR

you can always checkout the source code from sourceforge (http://www.sf.net/projects/bzk ) and run angbuild.sh. I did it several times FROM the EeePC.

Now, I must state this:

I wil stop working on BZK from now on. I have to graduate and this gamedev thing got on the way. I will probably fix demanded bugs and work on it for my grad-thesis, but no new feature will be incorporated.

I will also stop the work for "The Riddler" and every other side-project I have. Very sad, but true...

PS: the last Maemo release still worth as the definitive, as I changed little things since then.

The saddest thing is that the EZX release was around the corner and even more the PocketPC port, as I had it compiling, but not linking...

funny icon, huh?

Trust issues

"The INFP’s approach to every situation is to grant trust and respect from the outset. It then becomes yours to lose. It should be noted that if you violate an INFP’s loyalty or trust then you’re DONE! They will never trust you again. But this is unlike the “done with you” of an INTj or INFj. The INFP will still talk to you, they still listen to you. They will let you be part of their lives… but you’ll never ever regain that which you lost because by violating the trust and loyalty you burnt down the house it lived in [...] -the point being here that the only adage “fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me” holds true for the INFP. And, INFPs don’t like being fooled." (got it from here)

It's funny. I've done this, and I've considered it a life philosophy more than a personality trait. I obviously can't love everybody. And I certainly can't trust everybody - but to me, that's different! I do believe that everyone deserves trust to begin with. It's free. But once lost, I don't give another carrot. It sounds a bit harsh, but as stated in the quote: It's not that I stop liking the person or shuts him/her completely out. That would not be forgiving.

Rather, I just keep our relationship on a superficial and "safe" level where the person won't get another chance at getting to me. However, I feel challenged by the statement that true forgiveness would be to let them inside again and re-establish the intimacy we've lost. I don't see myself able to do that in an authentic way. And people have been disappointed with me in that aspect.

Confrontation

Some wise guy comments on the differences between INFJ and INFP:

"INFJ’s tend to be outgoing and almost enjoy dealing with people problems even if minor confrontations occur. Their Feeling side is Extraverted. INFP’s tend to avoid confrontation, at least to the point where confrontations are inevitable and then they turn into their true warrior selves. Their Feeling side is Introverted so they are more impacted by the negativity. INFP’s are hurt by rejection and don’t expect it. INFJ’s are less hurt by rejection because they expect it."

It's funny. The J's always seem more extrovert to me. I thought it just looked like that because they are so determined. I, on the other hand, am neither extrovert nor determined. I find myself being pushed to the edge before doing what I've considered doing. Mosty when I'm angry.

I will let people walk over me a 100 times before telling them directly that I would be most satisfied with ripping out their lungs and squash their hearts. The anger stays within till the point when I explode. People get surprised, because they didn't think I had it within me. But I did. I was storing it for the final powerful "let out". Doesn't make me a warrior, though. Except I usually feel fantastic afterwards as if the whole world is applauding me! 'Well done, INFP! Way to go!'

Reserved, but not distant

"Although they demonstrate a cool reserve toward others, inside they are anything but distant. They have a capacity for caring which is not always found in other types. They care deeply - indeed, passionately - about a few special persons or a cause. One word that captures this type is idealistic." (Found it here)

I always wondered how people perceived me. I've been thinking that I often look like a rather apathetic person -- someone who cares about nobody and nothing. However, I always felt like a people's person on the inside, which obviously sounds kind of stupid. But according to this description, it's not.

Own world

I found a great homepage about the Myers-Briggs. Well, the content is good while the page looks pretty oldschool. Click Myers-Briggs, and you may go on from there to the page describing the INFP. They call it "the dreamer". My friends prefer David Keisey's descriptions, but already having read that I went for the other one this time. So the quotes taken are from Sandra Krebs Hirsch and Jean Kummerow.

"INFP children often create their own fantasy world and live very much within it. They may daydream about what is important to them, and sometimes others wonder if they are in touch with reality. They often get lost in their thoughts and books, and may develop a special ability in communicating, such as writing."

I remember having done that. And when it comes to writing, I've written three long fantasy stories (novels, I suppose) and a lot of short-stories throughout my childhood.

Process must be meaningful

"INFPs need a purpose beyond the paycheck."
"Their job must be fun, although not racous, and it must be meaningful to them. They need a strong purpose in their work. They want to be recognized and valued, without undue attention given to them."
"INFPs prefer occupations in which they can be involved in making the world better. Having their heart in their work is important to them."

This probably holds true to all people in the long run. But in INFP's case, I think it's extreme. I can't imagine myself working at McDonald's for a temporal period just for money. I can't imagine myself doing anything for money, unless there was more to it! And it really bothers me. Especially now when I feel the need to get a job and make some decent money. I'm scared of what pointless work I'll have to do.

Keep polishing, may never finish

"They have trouble finishing what they start because of their perfectionistic nature. When they do finish a project, they may not consider it done 'for good.' Projects can always be improved upon, revised, and reworked, and therefore INFPs find it hard to bring tasks to closure. Because they are able to visualize the finished product long before it is done, the actual completion is of less importance."

I'm not really certain, if I'll ever get this posted. When I've posted it, I go through it again. I may correct mistakes, and I may change sentences ten times. The posts in your rss feeds may look very different from the end result. Also, I need to say that I have a thousand drafts. So many topics I started blogging about, but they never made it to the actual blog.

Career choises

"INFPs are particularly interested to be counselor, editor, education consultant, English teacher, fine arts teacher, journalist, psychologist, religious educator, social scientist, social worker, teacher, writer, and other occupations that engage their values."

There you have it! And it is so true. Though I never considered "social scientist" not knowing what it is, but science about social behaviours and patterns sounds pretty interesting! I will have to look into that. I considered Danish teacher (being Danish), also journalist. I never considered psychologist, but I did have psychology in school. Religious educator seems quite obvious since I'm becoming a minister. Someone says that 95% of ministers are NFs.

Obeying or rebellious?

"They do not like following all the rules and regulations, but they are not overtly rebellious."

I was discussing this with an INFJ who (sort of) claimed I was afraid to break rules. Not really. This quote fit me very well, I should think.

Leisure

"Many of the INFPs' leisure activities are done alone --- reading, listening to music, and gardening are some activities likely to appeal to them. Reflection time and the opportunity to make sure things are right are important. INFPs often enjoy leisure pursuits with loved ones as well. When they want to be sociable, they can be exceedingly charming and outgoing. Their flexibility, gentleness, and sense of humour can make them quite popular in social situations."

Gardening struck me as peculiar. This is a side I have not yet discovered, if true at all? But I do remember helping dad out in the garden, and I really enjoyed it. The real question is whether I liked gardening or just enjoyed helping dad. But reading and listening to music is cool. And writing, as mentioned. And I like that my personality type has a sense of humour. :)

Expressing love

This I really dislike about myself:

"INFPs may have difficulty sharing their feelings about others. They keep so many of those feelings inside that they may forget to tell their partner how much they love and appreciate them. They also need reminders of their partner's love."

And furthermore:

"When things go wrong in a relationship, the INFP takes it to heart but does not readily discuss it with others. They may not be willing to communicate to let others know how they are feeling. When scorned, they are very hurt and may overreact in an almost maudlin way."

Makes me go yukk! I hate people like that who don't tell what's bothering them. And I do feel sorry for my future partner on that account. Or these accounts. But I'm aware of it, at least.

In the end

Reading this stuff was kind of nice. It's generally nice to see someone understands one. All I have to say to certain people is that I'm an INFP, and then they can look me up, and they should know to some extent how I think and work. I don't like being predictable or figured-out, but I do like being understood and respected. And of course I had a similar experience to this INFP:

"Wow. I keep reading, and think, yes, yes, this is me! This is why I am introverted, why people think I am a snob but am really just shy, and slow to warm to others, this is why I am always with my head in the clouds, and idealistic, why I am always looking for praise and reassurance,this is why I like to work alone and get tense when it’s time for group projects, it’s all there!"

I'm gonna do something odd this time. I'm just gonna post it. No cutting down, no correcting. I won't be easy, but here goes! :s

What I said: 'Don't you pretend you've never considered doing it!'
What I meant: 'I have the right to actually do the stupid things, you may only have considered doing (and consciously chosen not to do)'

What I said: 'But I've been doing it till now'
What I meant: 'I know it's wrong, but I will keep doing it, even though the present circumstances are anything but ideal.'

What I said: 'But I was at the wrong place at the wrong time'
What I meant: 'It's not just that I failed in the situation, I also brought myself into that very situation where I knew that I would most definitely fail'

What I said: 'But I'm so weak, and temptation was so strong'
What I meant: 'I'm only the soulless product of genes and environment, so don't blame me for what I'm doing. It's not like I'm the least responsible for my actions.'

They found each other
the one the other
to fill out the hole.

Fun and attraction
forgetting what's real
a nice distraction
a temporary meal

2. But morning arrived
and lightbeams struck
The dream was gone

'It's over,' she sighed
'we have to stop.
This can't go on'

He cried her a river
just like the song
It made her shiver
she'd stayed so long

3. But staying together
as tied with leather
she'd never depart

She dreamed of a prince
his name 'whatever'
the greatest of hearts

Tall and funny
handsome and clever
sweet like honey
and hers, forever

4. 'I want what you are
don't get what I need
so get on top'

Her dreams fell apart
she gave him his treat
and shut him up.

Caught by what's real
but longing for more
she wiped off a tear
and looked at the door

5. Girls and boys
dream of perfection
Fulfilment of needs

But humans are toys
with no exception
if sex is the means

'Love in a nutshell!'
She wishes she'd known.
'Screw me like hell,
we're all on our own!'

http://www.southparkstudios.com/clips/104253/

"How about some scripture reading from the Book of Mormon! You know, the book that Joseph Smith found. You never heard of him? The most important person in the world."

"Joseph Smith was called a prophet."

http://www.southparkstudios.com/clips/104256/

"Who was this Joseph Smith guy? Why did he believe that Native Americans were actually white people that came from Jerusalem? Because he found ancient books written on goldplates right where the angel said they would be!"

"This must be the gospel that Jesus told the Nephites!"

"Well, I was not allowed to take them. You see, after I found the goldplates, the angel appeared to me again! and said to me that I was not allowed to show the seer stones or the goldplates to anybody! Because first, I must translate them into English so you can all read it!"

http://www.southparkstudios.com/clips/104257/

"What happened after he found the golden plates buried in the ground?"

"They're not rocks, they're seer stones, given to me by an angel. With these, God allows me to translate the plates into English! [...] I have the golden plates here in this hat. I have to keep 'em somewhere dark, so I can read the spiritual light."

"Write this down: And so ... it was ... that ... Christ ... appeared before ... the Nephites!"

http://www.southparkstudios.com/clips/154257/

"The best part of the Joseph Smith story: The part that proves he was for real!"

"Wait, Mormons actually know this story and still believe Joseph Smith was a prophet?"

Some criticism to the South Park depiction of Joseph Smith:

http://www.i4m.com/think/southpark/
http://monoglot.com/2006/07/21/the-south-park-mormon-clip/

the good news is that monobed is now quite functional. I've improved its rendering and the load and save operations now work very well.

I could load a Riddler level,save it and it play'd almost the same (the startpoint was diferent)

here is a picture (and this is the only spoiler and hint I will give about the game as you folks are killing to see more about it...yawn)

Why I do still go on with this shit? nobody cares anyway...

You see, it's a strange form of power
for part of you wish you didn't know
that you could just be happy
though completely ignorant

But now that you do know
the power appeals to you
a strong temptation
You can squeeze him
the person you know about
like you could squeeze a fly
like a child would pull off its wings
silently look at it
wriggling in its suffering
before smashing it with a thumb

To share the knowledge
to show the people
to present the hypocrisy
or simply the weaknesses

Anger, hate, and disappointment
the misery of knowing
what part of you didn't want to know
Even a twisted sense of responsibility
you need no more reasons
(some would say excuses)
only are you reminded
that this is your opportunity,
your chance,
and your trial

This is when you can show
the true face of God
the true grace of God

Not by forgetting
that is impossible
but by safe keeping
in a hidden box
never to be opened

For God knows everything
but he doesn't tell

When is it irrelevant?
100% of the time. Though it might be true that they are not holding any money at that moment (not even RM5 for the OPP, which is basically cheap lunch money) which means they didn't bring their wallet with them. However, this is one pending case, which from the sound of it, it's like he wants to come but he just left his wallet. Then when you offer him to hold the ticket and pay you later in the afternoon or something, he hesitates and says something random along the the lines of "I don't like owing people money". You wanna make money or what?? This is your opportunity, and I'm giving you priority here!

Pay with what you have and leave the rest to later today or tomorrow!

However, it may also mean that he is uninterested and just wants to get rid of you without hurting your feelings (though as network marketers we are immune to rejection). I know this because I've turned down people offering me party tickets the same way. You can only tell from his response towards the first presentation whether he is really interested or not, and what approach you should make.

What are they really saying?
I'm running low on cash, though the opportunity sounds interesting.

It sounds pretty good, but I'm low on cash and I'm not entirely sure I want to go.

I'm not interested, but I need to get rid of this guy politely with a little bit of hope while I figure out some BS to say to him when he asks again.

What's the solution?
One solution I've already mentioned above, where you can offer the ticket to him to pay later but make sure you take something. If the ticket is RM5 and he has only RM1 on him, take that money and tell him that he can pay the rest later today or tomorrow. If he has nothing on him, keep the ticket to protect your posture and offer him again later - unless he asks that you give him the ticket and promises to pay you later, in which case you might have found your man. All the way, you must edify and do it passionately so your prospect knows that it's a big deal.

If he didn't show interest throughout you presentation, you know you can save that ticket for someone else. Even if he did come, you know you won't be so passionate in helping him expand his business. Once again consider the priority scale or potential of your prospect to know whether it's worth pursuing or not. If he is potential, by all means push that ticket to him.

Handle the petty objections in a smart and creative way. Check back to find the excuse ranked at 2nd!

'Who is the quietest person on campus?' Andrew asked while we were preparing the food and the tables. I didn't put much thought into it, before I said in a most humble voice that I considered myself "pretty quiet". Later, I indeed received the prize, and Andrew asked me to say a few words, my very first words in Newbold history.

Standing in front of the large audience with my certificate I carefully considered what kind of speech would have the best comedic effect. 'Say something in Danish,' someone suggested, but I really didn't think that would be funny. Instead, I deliberately pretended I was trying to say something, but couldn't. I pretended to start weeping (quietly), and I covered my face with a hand and sat down, shaking my head. Judging from the response, it proved to be the more appropriate action.

Today, an American girl asked me if I would like to preach at Student Church in the beginning of May. I guess I've kept quiet long enough. Time to let extrovert Lars out for some fresh air. Though I don't think my ego needs to be fed.