To get "the law of attraction-ish" on you, that's just concentrating on all the bad and concentrating on the fear of a person or a thing. So in reality we're just bringing about the nastiness we're afraid of.

Personally I can't vote for either of the "two" candidates that the media has told us will be president. I don't really like either or their vice presidents, I don't trust them or feel safe with them. So why would I vote for them? I had considered not voting because sometimes it feels like a lost cause. But then I can't do that either. Not voicing my opinion seems stupid to me. But then there are a lot of people out there that would probably say it would be better if I didn't vote, or that I was just throwing my vote anyways if I vote for someone other then McCain or Obama. In my opinion throwing your vote if you don't believe in someone but vote for them anyways. It's really sad to me.

I was feeling some pressure about the elections and so I started googling. Obama & McCain's sites were annoying to me so I gave up on them quickly. Then I found the Project Vote Smart website. I'll admit I just cut strait to the chase and started reading about each candidate. The have a something called the Political Courage Test that each candidate answered and it give a basic idea of what they think about different issues and what they hope to accomplish. I felt pleased with the charts. I process things better when you just cut to the chase. I don't need a bunch of fancy words to feel informed. On the site you can also look state by state to see who is going to be on your ballot. That I thought was cool. The only person on the Minnesota ballot that I would trust in the white house would be Nader. I honestly can't feel good about voting for any of the others because I don't think they are the right people for the job.

So as far as I'm concerned it's either Nader for me, or Ron Paul. Yeah I know he's a republican and he's no longer running, but those are the two I feel like I would trust with my life, security and my family. Everyone else just has pretty words and never gets to the point or answers (my) questions directly. It's annoying.

The most important thing to me during the elections though, is that the people become informed, they vote, and they believe in the person they are voting for. It is sad to me that everyone feels like there is just two people. Two shapes that are trying to fill a hole of another shape. Oh they'll sit in there ok, but they don't necessarily make a perfect fit. Not that anyone is perfect or anything. Just get informed and vote for whole your gut and heart tells you is the right choice. No matter how big or small a chance that person has for "winning".

-

-

-

Less är ett ord som beskriver den kvävande känslan väggarna i den här lägenheten ger mig. Ska bara ringa förvaltaren. Fick höra att den vattenskadade parketten (oops) ändå är för gammal. Håll tummarna dårå...

Qball: “Hey, how are you?”
Me: “Hi…?”
Qball: “I know you from somewhere. I don’t know where though.”
Me: “Oh?”
Qball: “Yes. Online. Somewhere.”
Me: “Eh… I don’t think so.”
Qball: “Yes. Definitely. True. Are you on True.com. You messaged me on True.”
Me: “Uh… I don’t think so. I’m not on True.”
(Qball continues for a few minutes, insisting he’s messaged me on True. I couldn’t find a tactful way to say, “No. I am very sure I never messaged you. In a million years. Ever.”)

Qball finally left.

J. shot me a look like, “…hoe.”

J.: "Interesting eyebrows though."
(I try to wipe the look of mortification from my face.)

After happy hour, Erik, Paige, Dave, and I went to the Kitty Kat Club...which was special. Pictures later today.  Erik is setting Miss P up for a date tomorrow! WOO! We'll see how that goes.

Here are a few facts about me!!

I love Pink ( the colour )

I love Rihanna, Ne-Yo, Pussycat Dollz, Girlz Aloud and loadz more i cud go on forever! i've posted a couple of pics of cute things from this kool website--- www.glitterfy.com its so kool go on it!!

xxxx babv love

xxxx club penguin love

So, hi!  How ya been?  I've been okay.  Not good.  Just okay.  Again - whole 'nother story.  I'm on the brink of a three day weekend (Monday is a paid holiday), followed by a three day week (I took Friday off so that I could go to the day spa and get purrrrty), followed by ANOTHER three day weekend (10/20 is my regular day off).  And if that's not the best news ever, I don't know what is.  Oh wait, yes I do...

We got a puppy!  We pick him up tomorrow!  He's six weeks old and a black lab.  The name we've tentatively chosen for him is Otis (which, for some reason, just "fits" his personality).  Other names in the running are Gibson and Baxter.  We're going to give it a couple of days and see what his personality is like.  I'm nervous to bring him home - I feel like we're bringing home a new baby, with all the potty training and the getting up in the middle of the night and the socializing and everything.  It's going to be quite an undertaking, but we're very much looking forward to it.  D has wanted a dog since his family dog passed away last year, and I have tons of free time in the evenings to take care of a puppy.  So, we figured now is a good time.  Plus, since we're planning to move downtown late next summer (again... whole 'nother story), it gives us plenty of time to get the puppy trained and up to speed.  He'll be a year old around the time we move, which should work out perfectly.

I promise to expound on all of these "other" stories in the not so distant future.  I know I'm being vague, and I'm totally not doing it on purpose.  There's just been, well, a lot going on inside my head.  D and I are fine - so no worries there.  Just a lot of other "stuff."  Stuff that I'm sure I'll share in time, when I feel ready to talk about things.

So anyway!!!  Happy weekend, I'm sorry for the extended absence, and I hope all is well.

*DROOLING over Edward!!!*

Xoxo,

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

if i unsubscribed
newsletters and mailing lists
i'd get no email

not exactly true
ten from family and friends
in the past 6 weeks

i shouldn't complain
i haven't done much better
shouldn't be surprised

The two drawings pinned to the cork board aren't mine. I found them stuck into random art books at Barnes and Noble. Hm.

I've been doing some thinking then about what I would like then. The insignia is something I want, but I want it to be incorporated into a piece. I still like just having the color be only black. I don't think I want colored tattoos. My new idea is; the insignia, either surrounded by or part of some intricate and curly vining flower plants, and then one of the characters from LOTR. Not from the movie because I think the idea of tattooing someone famous on my body is weird. But finding a piece of someone's art and incorporating that figure into the design. I really would like to to be Eowyn as she would be my favorite character if I had one. The shield maiden. That is similar to what the name Heidi means (derived from the name Hildegard meaning "battle maiden"). I feel like having that kind of figure would be to carry that strength and courage with me and I really like the idea. And then have some writing, a quote from the books, in tengwar (Tolkien's elvish writing) or something else. That I will have to contemplate more.

I've been doing some searches for art and have a lot of beautiful stuff to work with, but nothing exactly that I really love. This is why I really need to design my own tattoo. I have lots of ideas, just not the talent to put it on paper. But that's my cool, new idea.

EDIT:

Ok, this is not fair! I did a search for Eowyn tattoo's and look what popped up!

Ok, I'm jealous now. It isn't exactly what I was talking about, but similar with the insignia at the top and Eowyn. Sheesh! Will I ever think of something original?

Here's to getting to know me a little bit :)

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
:: “…mean, waited so long? I just got en-en...I'd been…”

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
:: my sister's arm

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
:: Saksi on GMA

4. WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is:
:: 12mn

5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
:: 12:22am

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
:: the TV

7. When did you last step outside? what were you doing?
:: Around 4:30pm this afternoon, I went to the gym with my sister

8. Before you came to this website, what did you look at?
:: Female Network (GirlTalk)

9. What are you wearing?
:: Sando/tank top and boxers

10. Did you dream last night?
:: Yes, I did.

11. When did you last laugh?
:: A few minutes ago

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
:: They're still bare; paintings are not yet on the walls

13. Seen anything weird lately?
:: Hmm, none lately.

14. What do you think of this quiz?
:: Ok naman

15. What is the last movie you saw?
:: Twister on HBO and Awake on DVD

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?
:: A franchise (food)

17. Tell me something about you that I don’t know:
:: I love reading cheesy, romance novels. :D

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
:: There are so many things I can think of right now but cliche as it might sound, I'd like some world peace.

19. Do you like to dance?
:: Yes!

20. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? a boy?
:: For a girl, I'm still undecided what to name her. But I have a few that I've been playing around with-one thing I'm sure about is that she should have 'Marie' in her name because it's my name and all the girls in our family (plus my mom & her sisters) has Marie or Maria in their names as well. I'm toying with the names Elizabeth, Claire, Catherine, Catalina, and a lot more actually. :D
:: For a boy, I want a second name but I'm sure one of the names will be Joaquim. :)

21. Would you ever consider living abroad?
:: Yes.

Xoxo,

Reklaamides ja üldises moes on juba mõnda aega valitsenud trend, et ilus koer on ilm- tingimata väike ja teda saab kaenlas tassida. Välimuse osas on eelistused muidugi subjektiivsed, aga olen kohanud hämmastavalt palju väikekoerte omanikke, kes mõtlevad siiralt, et nende tupsununnukest ei pea kasvatama ("ta kikud on ju nii pisikesed") ja restoranide uksel olev keelumärk on mõeldud kellegi teise lemmiku jaoks. Eriti tore oli see, kui ühe neiu koer mulle põrandale hunniku tegi ja neiu teatas naeratades, et oh, ta on alles aastane (), ta ei peagi oskama veel välja küsida. Vähemalt koristas ise ära.

Mulle meeldiks väga, kui koera saaks hetkeks poodi (või pisut pikemaks hetkeks kohvikusse) kaasa võtta, et ta ei peaks üksi kodus passima. Rääkimata sellest, et ma lihtsalt tahaksin näha, et reeglid kehtivad ikka kõigile, mitte nii, et ühel päeval näen, kuidas mõne blondiini kasvatamatu (aga see-eest pisike) kökats mööda kohviku siseruume ringi jookseb ja kõik õndsalt naeratavad ning järgmisel päeval läheb see sama ettekandja, kes eile naeratas, välikohvikus istuvale inimesele teatama, et äkki lähete ikka ära, teie laua all magav labrador tundub liiga hirmuäratav.

Mõlemad näited on muidugi äärmustest (kuigi oma silmaga nähtud), aga selge on ju see, et hästi kasvatatud koera puhul pole asi suuruses, sest ka suurema koera jaoks leiab laua all ruumi ja allergikute jaoks lendub kraami sama moodi. Samuti on minul isiklikult avalikus kohas suurte koertega tunduvalt vähem intsidente olnud, sest inimene, kes tahab oma koera kuskile kaasa võtta, tunnetab sel juhul temast tekkivat ohtu ja näeb tema kasvatamisega rohkem vaeva - ning mõistab, et kõigile inimestele ei pruugi tema koera ila armas olla.

Aga tänane teema on ikkagi see, et suured koerad on ka ilusad - näiteks vasakult pildilt valiksin iga kell dogi ja chihu võiks elussöödaks jääda. Tundub, et see on hakanud ka massiteadvusesse jõudma, sest täna ajendaski mind kirjutama see, et nägin Rotermanni kaubamaja uut reklaami, kus on kaunis naine koos suure kauni koeraga ostukeskuses. See võiks ju olla mitte ainult ilus, vaid ka sotsiaalselt aktsepteeritav (kuigi nii pika poodlemise ajal oleks ilmselt koeral ikka kodus parem) - kas poleks ilus unistus? :)

P.S. Huvitav oleks teada, kas Rotermanni uksel on ka silt, et koeraga sisenemine keelatud? Kui ei ole, peaks Vaska tema Muskaga testima saatma. :D

I also gave myself a treat after dinner for sweating it out in the gym :P I looked at the box and 1 piece has 42 calories ;) Presenting... Toffifee! :D A whole hazelnut in chewy caramel with chocolate hazelnut filling and chocolate... *DROOL*

Xoxo,

Turns out he HATES rollercoasters.

Not hates in the "Holy. Shit. I thought I was going to DIE. Let's do that SIX MORE times!!!" kind of way. No, more like: A small part of my soul just died and now I'm going to be an Oliver Sacks story entitled "The man who walked in the fetal position and spoke in zigzags" or "Rollercoaster Reborn-agains" or some such neurological wonder of the world.

Exhibit A:

Okay, once you can see past the fact that I really need to buy a scanner, I'm in the front row on at the very left-hand side in the white jacket... If you can't tell what I'm doing, my face reads complete and utter joy, exhilaration and relief...basically I'm peeing my pants I'm so thrilled. D, on the other had (pictured right beside me) has entered a meditative-state akin to those who have suffered the Spanish Inquisition.

I can not tell you how hard I laughed after I saw this image on the screen. It was almost better than the adrenaline rush that you get from The Goliath (the biggest roller-coaster in Canada). And I think about half an hour after that, a seagull pooped directly on D's arm. A really big white and brown bird shit. HIGH. LARIOUS. He chased me through the park as I tried not to vomit from laughing so hard at him. SURPRISE DATE HONEY!

D has now issued threats of taking me to a Beekeeping Farm for my "Surprise Date". I think it would be kind of interesting to go do things you absolutely loathe on your dates with your significant other...

Dates for D:
1. Pickling cucumbers at local cucumber farm
2. International salad sampling festival
3. A kitty-cat petting zoo
4. IKEA

Dates for me:
1. A trip to the Apiary
2. Maggot harvest
3. "Disorganizing your life" Summit with special speaker C.H.Aotic on getting rid of to-do lists
4. Breakfast at the Decaffeinated Cafe

What would be your worst dates?

Jaha, förutom pösiga moderater i morgonsoffan har Frasse hållt mig vaken sen fyra. Fem kapitulerade jag och klev upp. Två kaffe. Utöver det har jag en vagel på vänster ögonlock. Vaglarna dom kan dom. Hålla till vänster alltså... Ångest är min arvdel, som han skrev Lagerkvist.

i hate this feeling sometimes. maybe all the time.

to just completely devote yourself or try your best to be there for someone. like always being there. but you're never enough. they rather have someone else instead of you. or even just having you around isn't more than enough. i hate that feeling. and it tears me apart and makes me really sad.

I HATE THAT FEELING!

i was talking to a couple of friends about it the other night. and with one of them, we were just going back and forth about it. it was kinda funny. she somehow knows how to make me smile and laugh. she's weird though. lol. and she's nice. and i love her even if she doesn't love me. lol. it seems like we go through a lot of similar things. i can really relate to her and i'm thankful for that. and i was talking to my best friend about it. and he was like am i enough? and i was like O.o. funny boy. lol. but yeahh he is enough. more than enough. cuz he's always been there for me, too. we laugh about everything and anything. however, there are other people that tries to be there for me, so why should i neglect them. i won't haha. (: thanks friends. acdj. lol

there isn't many people i rely on anymore because people are different. and they're not reliable like they used to be. i can't talk to people anymore. i find it really hard to talk to people that i'm suppose to be close with. people constantly drift apart. and i missed them A LOT. but i can't do anything about it. i miss youuuu.

i babble a lot. xD

Mike Rogers, a blogger who gained notoriety for outing closeted Republican officials, is spearheading a new initiative to support training and funding for the next wave of gay bloggers.

Rogers recently established the program, called the LGBT Bloggers & Citizen Journalist Initiative, with a $50,000 grant from philanthropist Jonathan Lewis.

Lewis is the son of Peter Lewis, one of the founders of Progressive Auto Insurance. Jonathan Lewis awards an annual scholarship through the Point Foundation’s National LGBT Scholarship Fund.

Rogers said the goal of the LGBT Bloggers & Citizen Journalist Initiative is to bring the online world together with traditional organizations that are sometimes lagging in the technology department.

Rogers said the initiative’s driving force is best encapsulated by a quote from Pam Spaulding, a lesbian blogger who writes at Pam’s House Blend: “You can ignore us, but we are journalists, we are activists, it’s all one now.”

Rogers said that other progressive movements have been more effective in quickly disseminating their messages.

Citing this year’s killing of Lawrence King, the gay California teen who was shot Feb. 12, Rogers said fewer people online knew about that than last year’s “Jena 6” controversy, in which six black Jena High School students in Louisiana were charged with attempted murder for attacking a white student after a noose was found hanging from a campus tree.

“How do we strengthen our voice so that when one of our young people is murdered, it becomes just as big of a story?” he said.

The initiative will begin with a December summit of 50 bloggers and representatives of gay rights groups, including the Human Rights Campaign and the Gay & Lesbian Victory Fund, which are sponsors.

“The Human Rights Campaign understands the importance of online organizing, commentary and activism,” said Joe Solmonese, HRC’s president, in a statement. “This venture will help create a synergy between organizations and new media never before seen in our movement, and we are proud to be a part of it.”

HRC donated $5,000 to the initiative, and the Victory Fund gave $2,500. The two groups will also co-host a networking party for bloggers and staffers the weekend of the summit. Rogers projects that with other individual donations, funding will reach $70,000 by the conference.

HRC and the Victory Fund each maintain their own blogs, HRC Back Story and GayPolitics.com.

Rogers, who writes online at BlogActive.com, said he’s now seeking 35 people to participate in the three-day summit, which begins Dec. 5. Participants receive round-trip flights to D.C., hotel accommodations and free meals. More information is available at bloggerinitiative.com.

Members of progressive organizations, Capitol Hill staff and community leaders will meet with bloggers to help establish personal relationships, Rogers said.

The goal of the meetings, Rogers said, will be to facilitate partnerships for future projects, such as live-blogging events that are coordinated by the organizations.

Denis Dison, the Victory Fund’s communications director, said that he handles bloggers the same way he handles traditional journalists in terms of supplying information and maintaining relationships to share his group’s message.

“It’s vital to keep up a relationship that’s somewhat symbiotic,” he said. “If you’re not a part of [the blogosphere] as an organization, then your message doesn’t get out as quickly as it needs to.”

Dison said that the relationships between bloggers and organizations, though, won’t compromise the bloggers’ role of serving as a watchdog.

“I’ve had plenty of times when I’ve had to go to a blogger and ask them to set the record straight on something if they’re criticizing us,” Dison said. “I definitely don’t think the relationship ‘protects us,’ but it does let us plead our case.”

source: Washington Blade